My 2025 has been a mix of rises as slips only to find a way to rise again. I have small victories after a lot of inner battles which in some ways seem to be tougher to handle. Yet, I find peace in that. As I look back on lessons I've learned this year, I look forward to the next year. I have no resolutions to pitch here, as I have nothing much to resolve. Just things to do..and an identity to fortify...one that future me can be proud of, because I walked the long path in t

While other families were planning to come together for the holidays, mine would be reeling from Death...one of our own who, like so many others bearing the last name, went through their journey of struggles and self discovery riddled in vices and close calls with our maker. I learned that night when I had to have him pulled off Life Support, that Death brings life to us, whether we want to admit it or not. That Grief and Honor would become my watchwords...

Some of us choose loneliness to be "at peace" and not be exposed or manipulated by anyone else because we're ultimately afraid of being misused or taken advantage of. To some, loneliness or being alone is considered a virtue.

Whats the worst part of a Relationship? Many will say that the breakup takes the cake, the final kiss, the final goodbye if you're lucky. But for the few, the worst part is long AFTER the split, When a Hurt Heart starts to Heal.

"I love all of this about me and it makes sense especially the diving into the occult or forbidden forms of truth to find deeper meaning. I use that chaos to incite change and help others. Growing up and even in some ways now I've repressed that powerful Aries side of me because I was afraid of it... Afraid to hurt or disappoint other people out of fear of abandonment not making friends or being alone through life." Even to a bot, that was heavy to admit; being afraid to hur

A 5 has this fear of being overwhelmed by others needs as well as my own. When feeling in jeopardy, I'll say fuck it, isolate from people, certain situations (marketing on social media sticks out here), and certain aspects of myself to avoid being controlled or being held accountable. Does that mean I'm a cheater or don't want to be held accountable? No. It sucks being wrong yes, BUT it doesn't make it okay to force me to be a certain kind of way when it conflicts with who I

It's fairly simple for me to inspire hope and positivity in other people. I can sit and listen and just KNOW the right thing to say or share. I live for that shit at times, to see and know people around me are doing well and are happier given my contribution or efforts, no matter how small. But internally, it can be a brutal struggle to believe in the hope of the desired future. When all is going well, it's easy for me to believe positive narration I've listened to or have w

I don’t like to lose. I want things to flow easily. I want a life with no mistakes, which means no embarrassments in front of people. However, what I want and what is destined to occur are two very different things. To prevent one from happening means a disruption of nature…a disruption of life. Without the Losses we won’t get the lessons in disguise. The blessings underneath the rust and the shattered rocks of what we expected to be the outcome. Forever and Abundance in ever

I’ve consumed content that emphasizes it's about being in alignment with the version of you that you want to reflect in your life. I believe in that. But yet, I question just how long does it take to get there? How much effort must I put in to get to that higher state of vibration? You have to let go. Be positive, get into alignment, and release what is no longer serving you. You must release The Old Self.

Whatever the case may be...its time I write to walk away from it... From you. Goodbye to the half-ass effort that was often one sided. Where I was hit up out of boredom, or when it was convenient When something was needed: advice, money, or comfort through attention. Where it was beneficial for you, until it wasn't.

It hurts when life causes us to crumple into debris in every aspect of our lives. We lose jobs, loved ones, we're thrust into change we don't want, get into vices that take away a bit more of ourselves each time we execute or indulge in them. But that is one part of the Life experience. We're not here to just suffer and die. We are also here To CREATE...to REBOUND... TO BUILD Your Home Within, Brick by Brick.

I looked at my life and how I'd been ruled by fear....and I hate it... But haven't done much about it. I may take a baby step here or there, but something in my subconscious looks at the current state and I'd get discouraged or say how the hell is this gonna take shape. "I'll never be able to do this the way they are doing it." "They make this sh*t look so damn easy, how?" And then I sit and dig back into my comfort prison of doubt, fear, and disbelief.

Dean Todd is in his office and is approached by Etta, his tailor. This is right in the midst of the memory spell kicking in. Etta mentioned how it made her sad that he could barely stand himself, but it also made him her best customer. He questioned this, to which she replied: "The bespoke suits, the hand-sewn shirts, its Armor - it's an armor to keep the world away. A disguise so that nobody can see what a truly loving heart you have."

The voice says: "The Balance of all is at risk. Stand your ground. Your niche is tied to your purpose. Unorthodox thought. It is your art and your birthright. Use it not to be seen but to spread a message that those ready to receive will receive. Yours is not for success or to avoid failure... But to spread what you know from within... A truth only you know."

I don't expect you to follow my path through life. You will need to lead your own life and find your own way. Be honorable and respectful. Speak your truth including how you feel but do it in a way that isn't harsh or hurts others, but promotes respect and conversation. Life isn't all about what you can get (Ahem...Robux, Money, your Phones, TV, and the rest of the material things out in the world). It's also about what you can offer to yourself and those around you.

For all my life, I have been afraid. So many different fears I wonder how I am not afraid to do even this. Maybe I was way back when when life was 'Lifing'. But between not being enough (inadequacy), not having enough (scarcity), fear of the past returning, fear of the future (overthinking, anxiety and worst case scenario/crisis planning), these are the shackles that pulled me out of a life worth living. An old war ship that lost its luster and counts it's days before its de

But here's what they don't tell you about the Normal way. Normalcy can change at anytime. Its all about perception. There's always going to be an opinion that defines Normal. A new wave, a new trend, a new standard or explanation.

When you think of the phrase "The End" what comes to mind? What emotions are you filled with? Does it fill you with joy knowing that you had a chance to gain experience and embrace the highs and lows of the journey? Or are you fearful of it, because you've struggled or made countless mistakes and the end means you failed?

But you're Married!! How could you do this? What about your Kids? You're going to destroy their minds and hearts! You're disloyal! You're a manipulator! You're a Fraud! You're a Cheater and a Liar! You're despicable! (With all the spit in my face) You're breaking God's Laws and Covenant! You're worshiping idols and masters! You're becoming primal! Unhinged! Sinful! You're just like all the other men! And the biggest one of all... Why Max, Why?!!

Been silent when I should have spoken. Spoken too much when maybe to the silence I should have listened. Reached out outside the bond and got too close. When emotions drifted away from me. The connection severed by the shades of the unknown The phantoms in our subconscious, our souls become strangers.