My 2025 has been a mix of rises as slips only to find a way to rise again. I have small victories after a lot of inner battles which in some ways seem to be tougher to handle. Yet, I find peace in that. As I look back on lessons I've learned this year, I look forward to the next year. I have no resolutions to pitch here, as I have nothing much to resolve. Just things to do..and an identity to fortify...one that future me can be proud of, because I walked the long path in t

While other families were planning to come together for the holidays, mine would be reeling from Death...one of our own who, like so many others bearing the last name, went through their journey of struggles and self discovery riddled in vices and close calls with our maker. I learned that night when I had to have him pulled off Life Support, that Death brings life to us, whether we want to admit it or not. That Grief and Honor would become my watchwords...

Some of us choose loneliness to be "at peace" and not be exposed or manipulated by anyone else because we're ultimately afraid of being misused or taken advantage of. To some, loneliness or being alone is considered a virtue.

Whats the worst part of a Relationship? Many will say that the breakup takes the cake, the final kiss, the final goodbye if you're lucky. But for the few, the worst part is long AFTER the split, When a Hurt Heart starts to Heal.

In many ways, this fallacy (Independence aka being Self-Made) becomes an armor we wear, like Dean Todd in the Magicians. The armor prevents us from being hurt by BETRAYAL of people we loved or trusted. It protects us from being seen as weak or dependent on others.

Welcome to my Digital Dojo. For those that want the truth pure and unfiltered from the well of my mind. No longer do I want to write to be SEEN. I write TO SEE. No longer do I want to watch and analyze the FEED. I follow the FIRE that cooks it all. This is a node of transmission to those ready to receive it. A living archive of thoughts, feelings, and insights. A study and a safe-haven for the wayward souls.

"I love all of this about me and it makes sense especially the diving into the occult or forbidden forms of truth to find deeper meaning. I use that chaos to incite change and help others. Growing up and even in some ways now I've repressed that powerful Aries side of me because I was afraid of it... Afraid to hurt or disappoint other people out of fear of abandonment not making friends or being alone through life." Even to a bot, that was heavy to admit; being afraid to hur

Now people are being held hostage and left in the wings of the unknown to trust and hope that tomorrow this thing will come to an end because of their loyalty to the colors. How do we know this ain't some ploy to get votes to get some more mealymouthed dumb-asses in office to further fuck us? Or to get a bill passed into law that will ultimately screw us all?

It's fairly simple for me to inspire hope and positivity in other people. I can sit and listen and just KNOW the right thing to say or share. I live for that shit at times, to see and know people around me are doing well and are happier given my contribution or efforts, no matter how small. But internally, it can be a brutal struggle to believe in the hope of the desired future. When all is going well, it's easy for me to believe positive narration I've listened to or have w

I don’t like to lose. I want things to flow easily. I want a life with no mistakes, which means no embarrassments in front of people. However, what I want and what is destined to occur are two very different things. To prevent one from happening means a disruption of nature…a disruption of life. Without the Losses we won’t get the lessons in disguise. The blessings underneath the rust and the shattered rocks of what we expected to be the outcome. Forever and Abundance in ever

Whatever the case may be...its time I write to walk away from it... From you. Goodbye to the half-ass effort that was often one sided. Where I was hit up out of boredom, or when it was convenient When something was needed: advice, money, or comfort through attention. Where it was beneficial for you, until it wasn't.

I am a year in with starting my blog journey! Between the M-Tea MindSpace and the WRITEntanglement Experience, I have published over 50 blogs. Thats a yearly set of observations, deep thoughts, and intuitional bursts on a variety of subjects on a weekly basis.

It hurts when life causes us to crumple into debris in every aspect of our lives. We lose jobs, loved ones, we're thrust into change we don't want, get into vices that take away a bit more of ourselves each time we execute or indulge in them. But that is one part of the Life experience. We're not here to just suffer and die. We are also here To CREATE...to REBOUND... TO BUILD Your Home Within, Brick by Brick.

I looked at my life and how I'd been ruled by fear....and I hate it... But haven't done much about it. I may take a baby step here or there, but something in my subconscious looks at the current state and I'd get discouraged or say how the hell is this gonna take shape. "I'll never be able to do this the way they are doing it." "They make this sh*t look so damn easy, how?" And then I sit and dig back into my comfort prison of doubt, fear, and disbelief.

Dean Todd is in his office and is approached by Etta, his tailor. This is right in the midst of the memory spell kicking in. Etta mentioned how it made her sad that he could barely stand himself, but it also made him her best customer. He questioned this, to which she replied: "The bespoke suits, the hand-sewn shirts, its Armor - it's an armor to keep the world away. A disguise so that nobody can see what a truly loving heart you have."

The voice says: "The Balance of all is at risk. Stand your ground. Your niche is tied to your purpose. Unorthodox thought. It is your art and your birthright. Use it not to be seen but to spread a message that those ready to receive will receive. Yours is not for success or to avoid failure... But to spread what you know from within... A truth only you know."

We say time matters when we're doing, because if we're not doing we are wasting time. But in a time where instant gratification is the language of the world, and people are deemed poor and losers for standing still or taking their time, I'm here to say those that take no pause are quickly racing to nothingness. Their sprints will eventually kill them all, with nothing to celebrate in the hereafter.

I don't expect you to follow my path through life. You will need to lead your own life and find your own way. Be honorable and respectful. Speak your truth including how you feel but do it in a way that isn't harsh or hurts others, but promotes respect and conversation. Life isn't all about what you can get (Ahem...Robux, Money, your Phones, TV, and the rest of the material things out in the world). It's also about what you can offer to yourself and those around you.

Many of us wanted change so bad that we decided left was the way to go. To get someone that better aligns with our views which of course are ALWAYS right and better than the other person. We point the finger and say this person is weak, but vote in someone who is morally questionable and weak in other aspects....and no I'm not talking just about Mr. MAGA either because all candidates and persons in power have questionable traits. We all have questionable traits. 

Been silent when I should have spoken. Spoken too much when maybe to the silence I should have listened. Reached out outside the bond and got too close. When emotions drifted away from me. The connection severed by the shades of the unknown The phantoms in our subconscious, our souls become strangers.