The WRITEntanglement 

In many ways, this fallacy (Independence aka being Self-Made) becomes an armor we wear, like Dean Todd in the Magicians. The armor prevents us from being hurt by BETRAYAL of people we loved or trusted. It protects us from being seen as weak or dependent on others.

Whatever the case may be...its time I write to walk away from it... From you. Goodbye to the half-ass effort that was often one sided. Where I was hit up out of boredom, or when it was convenient When something was needed: advice, money, or comfort through attention. Where it was beneficial for you, until it wasn't.

Dean Todd is in his office and is approached by Etta, his tailor. This is right in the midst of the memory spell kicking in. Etta mentioned how it made her sad that he could barely stand himself, but it also made him her best customer. He questioned this, to which she replied: "The bespoke suits, the hand-sewn shirts, its Armor - it's an armor to keep the world away. A disguise so that nobody can see what a truly loving heart you have."

The voice says: "The Balance of all is at risk. Stand your ground. Your niche is tied to your purpose. Unorthodox thought. It is your art and your birthright. Use it not to be seen but to spread a message that those ready to receive will receive. Yours is not for success or to avoid failure... But to spread what you know from within... A truth only you know."

I don't expect you to follow my path through life. You will need to lead your own life and find your own way. Be honorable and respectful. Speak your truth including how you feel but do it in a way that isn't harsh or hurts others, but promotes respect and conversation. Life isn't all about what you can get (Ahem...Robux, Money, your Phones, TV, and the rest of the material things out in the world). It's also about what you can offer to yourself and those around you.

When you think of the phrase "The End" what comes to mind? What emotions are you filled with? Does it fill you with joy knowing that you had a chance to gain experience and embrace the highs and lows of the journey? Or are you fearful of it, because you've struggled or made countless mistakes and the end means you failed?

I'll start by saying that I am married...colorless...odorless...black and white with ink and typewriter. A choice... A decision... Expectations pushed away, twisted, turned, disintegrated. And now, I wear a scarlet letter because I believe in love and mutual energies. Something that goes against the grain of the norm because I am against it's grain. A catalyst for change.

To hear and feel the emotions of people as we played. To strategize and crack jokes as we ran through the stages together. Thats teamwork!

Been silent when I should have spoken. Spoken too much when maybe to the silence I should have listened. Reached out outside the bond and got too close. When emotions drifted away from me. The connection severed by the shades of the unknown The phantoms in our subconscious, our souls become strangers.

Letter writing is a lost art form of communication these days. With DMs and Emails coming to the forefront fo communication, we've lost our sense of intimate expression through letter writing. This is part one of a series of letters I write to a variety of people to express my innermost thoughts and feelings and as a show of gratitude. The first is a letter to my younger self, with life wisdom I wish I knew sooner.