The WRITEntanglement 

While other families were planning to come together for the holidays, mine would be reeling from Death...one of our own who, like so many others bearing the last name, went through their journey of struggles and self discovery riddled in vices and close calls with our maker. I learned that night when I had to have him pulled off Life Support, that Death brings life to us, whether we want to admit it or not. That Grief and Honor would become my watchwords...

Whatever the case may be...its time I write to walk away from it... From you. Goodbye to the half-ass effort that was often one sided. Where I was hit up out of boredom, or when it was convenient When something was needed: advice, money, or comfort through attention. Where it was beneficial for you, until it wasn't.

I don't expect you to follow my path through life. You will need to lead your own life and find your own way. Be honorable and respectful. Speak your truth including how you feel but do it in a way that isn't harsh or hurts others, but promotes respect and conversation. Life isn't all about what you can get (Ahem...Robux, Money, your Phones, TV, and the rest of the material things out in the world). It's also about what you can offer to yourself and those around you.

But you're Married!! How could you do this? What about your Kids? You're going to destroy their minds and hearts! You're disloyal! You're a manipulator! You're a Fraud! You're a Cheater and a Liar! You're despicable! (With all the spit in my face) You're breaking God's Laws and Covenant! You're worshiping idols and masters! You're becoming primal! Unhinged! Sinful! You're just like all the other men! And the biggest one of all... Why Max, Why?!!

As I scroll through Threads from time to time, trying to spread thoughts and positivity to those that need it... I can't help but see and realize how many people out there carry heavy hearts, fractured minds, hurt spirits... The collective as a whole is suffering inside, even if it's masked on the big algorithm machine.

Because Connections Make a Difference. How else can we relieve the pressures we carry from society and our preconceived endless laundry list of responsibilities and duties, without being shunned that we are copping out? That we aren't Man Enough? That we're weak and need to bottle up our emotions and show some damn grit? We have to have some sort of support.

Little did I know, when I started living on my own, resentment and judgement lodged into my subconscious mind that didn’t really start showing until I became a parent. I want to share what those resentments are, and how I have, or plan to bury the hatchet to live free of family conflict. We'll start with the sins of my father. 

Been silent when I should have spoken. Spoken too much when maybe to the silence I should have listened. Reached out outside the bond and got too close. When emotions drifted away from me. The connection severed by the shades of the unknown The phantoms in our subconscious, our souls become strangers.