A 5 has this fear of being overwhelmed by others needs as well as my own. When feeling in jeopardy, I'll say fuck it, isolate from people, certain situations (marketing on social media sticks out here), and certain aspects of myself to avoid being controlled or being held accountable. Does that mean I'm a cheater or don't want to be held accountable? No. It sucks being wrong yes, BUT it doesn't make it okay to force me to be a certain kind of way when it conflicts with who I

Now people are being held hostage and left in the wings of the unknown to trust and hope that tomorrow this thing will come to an end because of their loyalty to the colors. How do we know this ain't some ploy to get votes to get some more mealymouthed dumb-asses in office to further fuck us? Or to get a bill passed into law that will ultimately screw us all?

It's fairly simple for me to inspire hope and positivity in other people. I can sit and listen and just KNOW the right thing to say or share. I live for that shit at times, to see and know people around me are doing well and are happier given my contribution or efforts, no matter how small. But internally, it can be a brutal struggle to believe in the hope of the desired future. When all is going well, it's easy for me to believe positive narration I've listened to or have w

I don’t like to lose. I want things to flow easily. I want a life with no mistakes, which means no embarrassments in front of people. However, what I want and what is destined to occur are two very different things. To prevent one from happening means a disruption of nature…a disruption of life. Without the Losses we won’t get the lessons in disguise. The blessings underneath the rust and the shattered rocks of what we expected to be the outcome. Forever and Abundance in ever

I’ve consumed content that emphasizes it's about being in alignment with the version of you that you want to reflect in your life. I believe in that. But yet, I question just how long does it take to get there? How much effort must I put in to get to that higher state of vibration? You have to let go. Be positive, get into alignment, and release what is no longer serving you. You must release The Old Self.

I looked at my life and how I'd been ruled by fear....and I hate it... But haven't done much about it. I may take a baby step here or there, but something in my subconscious looks at the current state and I'd get discouraged or say how the hell is this gonna take shape. "I'll never be able to do this the way they are doing it." "They make this sh*t look so damn easy, how?" And then I sit and dig back into my comfort prison of doubt, fear, and disbelief.

The voice says: "The Balance of all is at risk. Stand your ground. Your niche is tied to your purpose. Unorthodox thought. It is your art and your birthright. Use it not to be seen but to spread a message that those ready to receive will receive. Yours is not for success or to avoid failure... But to spread what you know from within... A truth only you know."

For all my life, I have been afraid. So many different fears I wonder how I am not afraid to do even this. Maybe I was way back when when life was 'Lifing'. But between not being enough (inadequacy), not having enough (scarcity), fear of the past returning, fear of the future (overthinking, anxiety and worst case scenario/crisis planning), these are the shackles that pulled me out of a life worth living. An old war ship that lost its luster and counts it's days before its de

But here's what they don't tell you about the Normal way. Normalcy can change at anytime. Its all about perception. There's always going to be an opinion that defines Normal. A new wave, a new trend, a new standard or explanation.

As I scroll through Threads from time to time, trying to spread thoughts and positivity to those that need it... I can't help but see and realize how many people out there carry heavy hearts, fractured minds, hurt spirits... The collective as a whole is suffering inside, even if it's masked on the big algorithm machine.