I looked at my life and how I'd been ruled by fear....and I hate it... But haven't done much about it. I may take a baby step here or there, but something in my subconscious looks at the current state and I'd get discouraged or say how the hell is this gonna take shape. "I'll never be able to do this the way they are doing it." "They make this sh*t look so damn easy, how?" And then I sit and dig back into my comfort prison of doubt, fear, and disbelief.

But you're Married!! How could you do this? What about your Kids? You're going to destroy their minds and hearts! You're disloyal! You're a manipulator! You're a Fraud! You're a Cheater and a Liar! You're despicable! (With all the spit in my face) You're breaking God's Laws and Covenant! You're worshiping idols and masters! You're becoming primal! Unhinged! Sinful! You're just like all the other men! And the biggest one of all... Why Max, Why?!!

As I scroll through Threads from time to time, trying to spread thoughts and positivity to those that need it... I can't help but see and realize how many people out there carry heavy hearts, fractured minds, hurt spirits... The collective as a whole is suffering inside, even if it's masked on the big algorithm machine.